I Am My Own Worst CriticPosted: January 28, 2012
Why is that? I am really hard on myself. I tell myself I am a work in progress and that mistakes are okay. There are days that I even believe it….but other days? Other days, I get angry with myself and you know what? The days that I am mad and unforgiving, the days that I screw up and tell myself I’m an idiot, the days that I feel sad that I am not smarter, prettier, a better wife, a better mother, a better daughter, a better friend, etc. etc., it is those days that I make really bad food choices, dare I admit that it is those days that I binge….that there is not enough food in the world that can fill me up and I am not gorging on bags of apples…When I’m done eating everything with no nutritional value that I can get my hooves on, I feel gross and disgusting and unhappy. Then, I get angry with myself and the cycle starts over. Any wonder why I am a bovine?
When I can break the cycle, when I can forgive myself, when I believe I am a work in progress and that mistakes happen (or maybe just on the days when I am perfect :)) I eat healthy and treat my body with the respect it deserves…
So I guess the key is to figure out how to stay in the forgiving, work in progress place. Any ideas on how to get to/stay in that place?
Sounds like I need intense therapy doesn’t it?
M O O,
My Inner Bovine